Oh, my goodness. I am a guy who has moderate to low emotions most of the time. In fact, most of my life. Now on medication, fluctuations in serotonin, and depression I get to enjoy a plethora of feelings I never really had in the past. Again, it may not seem unusual to most, but, I have never really been like this so its like I am in someone else’s emotions.
Today I felt empty. Depression’s name gives the false idea that you are sad when most of the time you just feel – nothing. And nothing is bearable. The only sucky part is when I have to interface with others. I go from no feeling to 100% irritated. So, to spare those around me, I have been avoiding people for most of the day.